Hey Anxiety

Hey anxiety I wanted to talk I just wanted to say fuck u
Fuck you for taking my breath, my voice, my self esteem Fuck you for taking away my beliefs and security Fuck you for the doubts and long list of things I can never achieve Fuck you for the overthinking, and creating these dreams and visions that never come to be

FUCK YOU — but fuck me too Because I give you the keys and let you take control Let you rule my thoughts until they run so fast they leave me to rot Eating the dust of the never-ending scenarios and situations that may come to be Locked in your prison, never able to be free

I want to leave you behind but I can’t Because I’m so scared and traumatized from those days back when… nah I’m not gonna go there Too much to tell, and I don’t feel like talking to you for too much longer

Wish I could make you a deal to leave me be But to do that I would have to lock you up— and we both know you wouldn’t like that

I shouldn’t care about what you want or how you feel But you are a part of me, a part built from fear and damaged pieces trying endlessly to fill the cracks of a puzzle that’s still trying to connect

So fuck you anxiety, I hope you heal and become a better part of me, because despite the pain you cost me— I need to accept and learn to love
all of me.